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04 July 2015 @ 11:46 am
And Happy Birthday To The Best (Fictional) American - Steven Grant Rogers!!! :D

Celebrate in style today and always remember to strive for the ideals that this country (and Steve) stand for. We may not be a perfect country, but I wouldn't want to be from anywhere else in the world.

happy 4th

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04 July 2015 @ 08:43 am
After years of badgering by more people than I even want to name or think about (although Jo heads the list, because of course she does), I finally broke down and got a Tumblr account.

No, you didn't misread anything. Yes, the world may, in fact, be ending.

I have no idea how often I'll be on there since it's still blocked at work, but I did want some way to keep in touch with all of the readers of my MCU-related fic, and since that entire fandom's pretty much been Tumblr based from the get-go, well. If the Mountain won't come to Mohamed, etc, etc, etc.

Anyway, follow me if you want. It'll mostly be fic based stuff and probably a fair amount of Jo and I having odd conversations (well, as much as one CAN have a conversation on Tumblr, which is still a terrible place for it - great for pics, bad for interaction), but who knows. I'm not leaving LJ or posting here any less. I like it here. You guys are great. I can TALK to you guys here. :D

Oh, before I forget (what, I haven't had coffee yet, my brain isn't yet engaged), I'm here:

And NOW it's time for coffee and watching a little bit of Wimbledon before working on the Greek Gods AU and then a pool party at a friend's. \o/

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Current Music: Berdych/Anduar Match
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03 July 2015 @ 07:39 pm
And a mere 90 minutes before the deadline, I have finished and posted the rough draft of my pinch hit NPT fic. \o/ Granted, it still needs a fair amount of work, but it's finished and posted.

I think I shall celebrate with a beer and maybe some nachos. And maybe I'll finally get all caught up on Daredevil, although I won't hold my breath. :D

Current Mood: jubilantjubilant
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03 July 2015 @ 11:43 am
I have, um, about 9ish hours to finish my not_primetime pinch hit fic. And by finish, I mean, START, because I haven't actually done that yet. Oops? At least it's only 1000 words. It's just coming UP with 1000 words that seems to be tripping me up. (Also, in my defense, the person I'm pinch hitting for didn't put up a Dear Author letter, so I have zero ideas on what the recipient even wants, which is tough. Good deeds, man, they never go unpunished.)

I did finish my slashorific rough draft last night, though. It still needs a fair amount of work, but at least all of the pieces are together. Hopefully I can get done with the NPT fic in enough time today to work on editing and parsing this thing into some sort of shape to send to my very patient and awesome betas.

But now, it's time for a shower, then more coffee, then to actually figure out what I'm going to write for said pinch hit and get on that. Wish me luck!!!

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Current Music: "Outside" - The Foo Fighters
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02 July 2015 @ 11:56 am
Alright, now that reveals have gone up and I've posted my fics, hands up, who was honestly surprised that "Off The Record" and "Clueless" were mine? Anyone? It's okay, I'll wait. :D

Yeah, I know, I'm terrible at disguising my writing style or my faves or my likes. Although, I gather a few people were thrown by the Bucky/Maria pairing in "Clueless", which is surprising, considering I've written that pairing before. At any rate, yes, "Off The Record" was the pinch hit I picked up at the very last minute and wrote in 72 hours, and "Clueless" was the one I kept rewriting because it kept changing on me. So now you know.

Any of my fellow Americans going out of town for the long weekend or doing anything fun for the 4th? I'm leaving work after lunch today (we're having BBQ delivered, which is the only reason I'm staying) and then I'm not back in the office until Monday. I still have one NPT fic to finish, as well as my Slashorific fic, but the bulk of my weekend will be on finishing the Greek Gods AU so I can get the rough draft to my artist. Considering our posting date is July 29th, I think that's probably a wise idea. :D

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Title: "Clueless" 1/1
Author: Brenda (azewewish)
Fandom: Captain America/The Avengers
Pairing: Steve Rogers/Thor Odinson (Bucky Barnes/Maria Hill)
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 13055
Notes: Written for SlevinRipley for the mcu_aufest.
Summary: Former Military/Roomates AU, featuring an oblivious Steve, an impending groom Bucky and a very very patient Thor. And an amused Natasha, because, let's face it, the situation is hilarious

You can read the fic over on AO3.
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Title: "Off The Record" 1/1
Author: Brenda (azewewish)
Fandom: Captain America/The Avengers
Pairing: Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 9100
Notes: Written for TwinAgonies for the mcu_aufest.
Summary: Celebrity/Journalist AU based on this amazing prompt. (Steve is the celebrity, Bucky is the journalist.)

You can read the fic over on AO3 or here on LJ.
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29 June 2015 @ 10:17 am
Alright, so the 2015 Remix Redux fics are all up, and I haven't had a chance to go through them yet, but it looks like there are a ton of great looking fics in a lot of fandoms, so head on over and peruse and hang out and celebrate the creativity of fandom.

(And yes, if you DO happen to guess the remix that I actually wrote, you get a cookie. Okay, really, you'll get a fic of your choice, because cookies in the mail is just wrong.)

However, I did read the remix written for me, based on In The Blur Of Serenity (the first fic in my Barnes & Rogers series) and it is AWESOME. The author manages to capture all of the snark and banter I love about these guys and actually wrote Bucky tackling Steve's Wikipedia page, which means, I don't have to. :D

Anyway, go here and read it and laugh: In the Blur of Serenity (The Wikipedia Twist Remix)

I promise, it's the best cure for the Monday Morning Blues.

In other news, I still haven't finished my slashorific Fic yet, but I did get a rough draft of one of my NPT fics written, so there is that. (Yes, I still have to write the other NPT fic I picked up.) Mostly, though, I spent yesterday trying not to melt, because it was about 95 degrees and super sticky outside. Yaye summer.

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27 June 2015 @ 11:11 am
Alright, so the 2015 MCU AU Fic Exchange Collection is now open - so please head over and give the fics some love. There's a lot of diversity in pairings and AU scenarios, which is awesome. (And yes, as previously noted, I wound up writing 2 fics for the exchange. If you figure either one out before the reveal, I...I don't know, maybe I'll write you a ficlet or something. That sounds cool. *g*)

Anyway, the point is, I got THE most amazing fic in the exchange. It's a Bucky/Steve spies-pretend-boyfriends AU and it's, like I said in my very gushing comment to the anon author, the PERFECT PERFECT mix of banter and competency and longing and fluff and romance and introspection and the author has a lovely handle on Bucky and Steve and how their canon personalities still shine through in this AU.

Also, there's an almost sex scene that's seriously hotter than some actual sex scenes I've ready lately.

Seriously, go read and shower the author with love, because they deserve all of it -
Pitch and Flame :D

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26 June 2015 @ 11:48 am
Huh, has it really been two weeks since I've posted?? That doesn't seem right. I mean, I've checked LJ every day, how could I not have made even one post???

Anyway, important things first. Gay marriage is legal across all 50 states as of today, which means all of my gay and bisexual friends in my home state can now legally get married, which is pretty fucking awesome. I never, ever, in a million years, thought I would see gay marriage become legal in Georgia in my lifetime. :D Now, if we could just get LGBT people the same workplace discriminatory protections other minorities enjoy, that would be even better.

But, for today, I will celebrate with pride, and yes, the pun was totally intended. :D

In other news, I've pretty much been in a writing frenzy the last week or so, between my Remix, my MCU AU fic, and the MCU AU pinch hit I picked up. And I have three more fics to finish by next Friday, so guess what I'm doing this weekend? Go on, I'll wait.

However, I did go out last night with a friend to see a very interesting play at the Geffen, and spent the mixer/party after the play mutually flirting with a very cute guy from Asheville. It's always good to get out every once in awhile and get my flirt on and interact with new people. Something I need to remember when I start to go through my hermity phases.

Um, in fandom news, I haven't caught any of the new summer shows yet, but I did record Killjoys and Mr. Robot and Humans, so hopefully I'll watch them at some point. I'm sure there's been some movie or TV news or casting news that I forgot to post about, too. Oops.

In baseball news, let's just not talk about it. Sweeping the Mets was great, but GETTING swept by the Nationals and losing Freddie to the DL sucked out loud. But baseball is still baseball, and it's all awesome.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!! You know where I'll be. ;)

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13 June 2015 @ 08:04 pm
Today would have been my step-father's 60th birthday today. It's hard to believe it's been almost 4 years since he died. Some days, it feels like it just happened yesterday, and some days, it feels like a decade. But today is a day for celebration. There certainly would have been one helluva party for him if he were around, so I invite everyone to raise a glass & toast him instead. He always got a kick out of my LJ friends and fannish loves.

Also, to honor both him & Chris Evans (who also happens to have a birthday today, and Skip LOVED that he and Captain America shared a birthday), I'm watching The First Avenger tonight. It was Skip's favorite of the Marvel movies that came out before he died (God, he would have loved Cap2) and Cap was his favorite comic character. Well, to be strictly fair, Skip was a sucker for ALL things World War II (I can't even tell you how many times we watched Band of Brothers together and every single History Channel special on WWII), so that probably explains the Cap love. :)

In other RL news, the alternator went out on my car on Thursday night while I was driving home. Which, I'm not sure if it's ever happened to any of you guys, but I don't recommend it. I mean, my car just died. Like, I thought I'd run out of gas or something, because my gas light came out, then my battery light, then the pistons backfired, then luuuuuuurch, stop, dead car. Did I mention it was rush hour and I was on a major street? So yeah, that was fun. But, thankfully, something easily fixed and I had car back on Friday afternoon, so yaye for easy repairs.

In writing news, I totally rewrote my MCU AU fic today (the other idea I had was not gelling at all the way I wanted it to, so I might revisit it later when I don't have a deadline looming over me) and worked on my Remix fic, which is still slowly coming along, and I may have inadvertently given myself the mother of all AU plot bunnies yesterday while exchanging emails with Jojo, so I have something else to add to my never-ending list. Yaye, I guess? :D

At any rate, I think it's time for pizza and the Love Story of Steve And Bucky And Peggy. :D Happy Birthday, Skip and Chris Evans!!!! You've both inspired me in very different ways.

Current Mood: happyhappy
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08 June 2015 @ 04:22 pm
When I wasn't spending my time researching crazy amateur gay porn, I did manage to do a few other things.

- I saw Ex Machina over the weekend, and it was a beautifully haunting film with some great performances and an amazing score. It was sort of like watching the inverse mirror to Her, in a really good way. Definitely the sort of film that sticks with you and one I'd love to read more meta on at some point.

- I also saw Tomorrowland, and once you get past the first 10 minutes (which were just bad), it was a pretty cute film, and I really liked the message in it. Also, the lead actress is a hoot. It reminded me a lot of the old 70's Disney films with Jodie Foster, so if that's your thing, you should find it enjoyable. But seriously, the first ten minutes, what the hell was Brad Bird thinking???

- I also finally FINALLY sat down and watched the last five episodes of The Flash, and THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU, the show finally gave Iris something relevant to do, which was far too long in coming. And I'm glad the show didn't kill Joe off (I was worried, okay, because he is by far my favorite character on the show), but I am sad that Eddie is gone. :((( And even more sad that Dr. Wells is gone, because I love Tom Cavanaugh a lot. And if the show could just keep a certain OTT villain played by a certain ex-friend of mine off the show, I'd be super grateful, because he's such a bad actor now. But overall, I was please with the final stretch of episodes and I can't wait to see where they go with season 2.

- I also watched the first episode of Sense8, and yeah, count me in. I want to finish Daredevil first, but then I will totally binge watch this show. It just looks amazing, and I am a sucker for the Wachowskis brand of insanity.

- I also finished the first rough draft of my MCU AU fic, and now comes the hard part of rewriting half of it, because at least 4000 of the 9200 words are pure crap. But there is something to be said for writing one's way out of bad characterizations and pacing issues, and I think I finally cracked what went wrong and how to fix it.

- I also sketched out my Remix fic, which is good, because I was getting worried that I wouldn't have a viable idea in time to really work on it. I'm pretty excited about it, too, because it's a total change in tone from the original, which is what I love about remixes. :D

- I did not, however, work on the Greek Gods AU or the TJ & Bucky meet fic or my Slashorific fic. Or either one of my NPT fics, although I do know what I'm doing for both of those. I probably should knuckle down for some serious writing time this week.

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08 June 2015 @ 01:01 pm
(Full disclosure before anyone reads any further: This post is about watching amateur porn, not about me being in an amateur video. If I were ever going to do porn, I would absolutely get paid for it, because duh. :D)

So, for various reasons too convoluted to get into right now (and, also, not the point of the post - see, I don't always veer off topic, shut UP, idiosyncratic), I wound up doing a fair amount of research (like, for real, actual research, not a code word for getting off, although hey, let's be honest, guys giving other guys blowjobs will never not be hot) on a few amateur gay porn websites. Mostly the ones featuring college frat boys, which I'll get to in a minute, but I have to start with one of THE weirdest amateur porn vids I've ever seen, and it just so happened to be gay incest.

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Current Music: "Solid Gold" - Golden Filter
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04 June 2015 @ 04:48 pm
I got tagged by geckoholic for the following meme: Pull seven lines from the seventh page of your WIP, then you're supposed to tag seven other writers.

I had a few to choose from, but maybe talking about the Greek Gods AU & posting about it will encourage me to actually work on it. (Just remember for the purposes of this snippet that Bucky is Hades, Tony is Hephaestus, Natasha is Ares, Clint is Aphrodite, Darcy is Dionysus, and Steve is mortal and my Persephone):

"Not this one. I can't have a dalliance with a mortal, you know that. What happens when they die and I'm called upon to judge them?" Let his brethren fight for the fleeting favor of the humans or argue over territory – he couldn't afford to get dragged down into those petty squabbles. His realm was without end and relied solely upon his impartiality.

Tony sighed, low and long-suffering. "I swear, sometimes I think you really dig this whole brooding, angsty persona you've created. You need to get out more. Get laid. Smell the roses or tiptoe among the tulips or at least go to one of Darcy's raves or something. You know she's got a soft spot for you."

"And I for her," Bucky replied. Perhaps he would. It had to be better than aching for something he would never have. (Not the same thing as pining, in case anyone wanted to try to argue the point.) Steve Rogers, as bright and incandescent as he was, would never be Bucky's. The only interaction they could ever have would be after Steve's death, when Bucky would pronounce his judgment and send him on his way to his eternal reward. And, given the goodness and purity of Steve's heart, there was little doubt as to where he would go. The most Bucky could hope for would be a few words of comfort before Steve went to the Elysian Fields and drank the ambrosia and forgot his fleeting mortal life.

"Then it's settled," Tony said, "you'll get out and make out with a nymph or get your dick sucked or whatever it is you're into...hey, Nat, what's Bucky into?"

Natasha (in her natural female form today) squeezed in next to Bucky while Clint took the chair next to Tony. "Why are you asking? Are you interested?"

"Maybe, I mean, I'd have to clear it with Pepper first, but I think she'd understand. I mean, he does have that whole sexy, dangerous vibe going for him."

"I'm not fucking you, Tony," Bucky stated, because, nope, not ever happening, not even if he drank all of Darcy's wine first or Clint emptied his entire quiver of arrows into Bucky's chest.

And...hmmm...I'm tagging: sperrywink, kaydeefalls, igrockspock, theladymore, killabeez, notoriousreign, idiosyncratic. Have fun. :D

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We will not speak of much of this week (especially yesterday), but today is has been so much better. And because I can totally talk about other fun things that aren't Sebastian Stan's scruffy face, here are a few other scruffy faces I'm excited about:

- HANNIBAL IS BACK TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am super duper excited by this.

- The new Macbeth Trailer looks amazing & broody & creepy & has the added bonus of Fassy AND Marion Cotillard as my favorite murdering spouses. Two of my favorite actors in my favorite Shakespeare play? Yes, please, and thank you.

- The new M:i5 Rogue Nation Trailer looks fun as hell and it really just needs to be July 31st already. ALL THE GRABBY HANDS.

- I'd completely forgotten that Jake Gyllenhaal & Jason Clarke did a movie together until I saw the (very excellent looking) Everest Trailer and then I remembered the book (and true story) it's based on & yeah, I'll be bringing all the tissue to this film. But I will be seeing it. Because Jason & Jake. And bonus Sam Worthington.

- I'm stupidly excited that John Noble will be on Elementary next season as Daddy Holmes. Hopefully Rhys will come back for at least one episode so we can get all the Holmes boys together. :D

- I'm also stupidly excited that James Wan is directing the Aquaman movie, and really wish I didn't have to wait so damn long for the film to come out already.

- We are not speaking of yesterday's French Open match except to say I'm rooting REALLY hard for a Murray/Tsonga final and even if we're reaching the end of Rafa's reign as a dominant player, he's still the single greatest clay court player who ever lived and no one can touch his 9 titles at Roland Garros.

And, because I really can't seem to make a post these days without at least one MCU related thing, I listen to a lot of Classic Alternative and 80's New Wave at work because a) it's pretty workplace appropriate music (unlike 90% of what I normally listen to) and b) it's catchy enough to keep my interest, but I've also heard the songs so much that I can tune them out without feeling like I'm missing anything when I need to concentrate on other things. (This is not the MCU related part. I'm getting there.)

Anyway, the point is, every single time I hear "Stand & Deliver" (by Adam & the Ants) on either Spotify or Slacker Radio, the only thing I want out of life is a Captain America Robin Hood AU with Steve as Robin and Peggy as Maid Marian and Bucky as Little John and the rest of the Howlies as the Merry Men (like, Dugan is Friar Tuck and Gabe is Nasir/Azeem (the Moor or Saracen character, depending on which adaptation you're following) and Morita as Will Scarlett and Monty as Alan-A-Dale and Dernier as David) and Red Skull as the Sheriff of Nottingham. And it makes me VERY sad that no one's written this already. (Unless someone has & I've just missed it. If so, please send me the link.)

I may have to add it to my never-ending list of Things To Write.

Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: "Sunday Bloody Sunday" - U2
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03 June 2015 @ 01:27 pm
So, I'm pretty sure Sebastian Stan is trying to both break Instagram AND the Captain America fandom with his latest Instagram pic from the Cap3 set:


I mean, all I can say is, good job, Seb. Good job.

(Although if I have to read one more "sad hobo trash" Bucky comment, I might hit someone. Stop it, fandom, you're embarrassing yourselves.)

But mostly, I'm just looking forward to staring at that on the big screen next May. :)

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Current Music: Braves/Diamondbacks on 680 The Fan
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29 May 2015 @ 04:07 pm
God bless Hayley Atwell for crashing the set of Cap3 just to hang out with the cast & crew. I will forever stan for this girl. Not the least of which because she posts pics like this one:


I'll just be over here pawing at the screen a lot. Y'know, as you do. (Also, why aren't more people writing Peggy/Steve modern day AUs??? Why???)

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27 May 2015 @ 04:30 pm
It's been a crazy-busy day at work today, but I have Braves baseball tonight (a co-worker is treating me to tonight's Braves/Dodgers game as a thank you gift for helping him with one of his projects, woohoo), so I'm trying to just hold on for the next 45 minutes.

AND, there are rumors that Tilda Swinton is in talks to play The Ancient One in the Doctor Strange movie (which means I might actually see it now) and that Chris Pine is in talks to play Steve Trevor in the Wonder Woman film, so my geek day has already been made.

Oh, and over the long weekend, I finally watched the last 4 Arrow episodes, and while I'm not sure how I feel about Malcolm as Ra's, I am ALL in for Thea finally taking her rightful place on Team Arrow. And I really hope that Season 4 sees the start of the true Green Arrow run with Oliver finally lightening up and being more like comics!Oliver.

The last 5 episodes of The Flash are next on my list. Maybe by September I'll get all caught up. :D

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Current Music: "The Sun" - Portugal. The Man
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Title: "I Love The Sound (When You Come Undone)" 1/1
Author: Brenda (azewewish)
Fandom: Captain America/The Avengers
Pairing: Natasha Romanov/Steve Rogers
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 3740
Notes: Written for the towerparty "smut" lightning round, and for geckoholic and redbrunja, because I owed them a Natasha getting spectacularly laid fic.
Summary: Natasha keeps trying to set Steve up with other people, but Steve already has his eye on someone a lot closer to home.

You can read the fic over on AO3 or here on LJ.